Friday, September 2, 2011
New Blog
I deleted my hotmail account, and I can't figure out how to merge this onto my gmail, so I just made a new blog. Find it here.
Monday, July 11, 2011
It's 5AMish, & I Feel a Little Emo
My iPod is dying. It's been a good 3 1/2 years, so I can't really say that I'm... disappointed in it. I frankly expected it to start dying a lot sooner. But despite its many hours of service, I'm still annoyed to all hell at it. No sir, Mr. Classic iPod, you're not getting any sympathy from me! Your constant pausing and refusal to play continuously for more than half an hour is crossing the line, no-sir-ee! I'm gonna do what I should've done years ago! What's the newest generation of Sony players...
So I'm considering buying a Sony 8gb for about 60-70 bucks. I hardly used a 10th of the Classic iPod's storage, so I won't notice the size difference. A lot of reviews comment on the relatively small user wheel, but I'm sure that after a few months, I won't even notice the difference. Plus, this product has an FM tuner, which is something I'm actually looking forward to having in a portable player again. Maybe it's the old fuddy duddy in me, but I enjoy listening to hours and hours of commercial laden music, with playlists that boast hardly any variety and that contain songs with less lyrical content than most elementary school haiku.
... wait, no, but I'm being serious about liking the option of having an FM tuner. Real talk, real talk!
Still job hunting. Clerical positions have rather stringent requirements, which seems a bit silly, considering that a good chunk of those positions don't pay particularly well. I suppose in this economy, companies can afford to be a bit choosier and pay less, since the demand for jobs is so high. I'm considering doing a 2 job stint and just murder the free time for a while until something better comes my way. Hopefully I can land a job somewhere soon. This lack of real purpose behind my life is starting to get to me. My sleep schedule is entirely out of whack, I'm starting to feel listless, I still have bills to pay and debts to get rid of... Bleh.
I should look into getting an unpaid internship, and just get my foot in the door, but I need the revenue. I can't really justify working for free to myself... but then again, I'm barely employed right now. What would an unpaid internship really do to my current situation except eat into my gas bill a bit more?
Bleh. Gonna job hunt a bit more online before falling asleep.
So I'm considering buying a Sony 8gb for about 60-70 bucks. I hardly used a 10th of the Classic iPod's storage, so I won't notice the size difference. A lot of reviews comment on the relatively small user wheel, but I'm sure that after a few months, I won't even notice the difference. Plus, this product has an FM tuner, which is something I'm actually looking forward to having in a portable player again. Maybe it's the old fuddy duddy in me, but I enjoy listening to hours and hours of commercial laden music, with playlists that boast hardly any variety and that contain songs with less lyrical content than most elementary school haiku.
... wait, no, but I'm being serious about liking the option of having an FM tuner. Real talk, real talk!
Still job hunting. Clerical positions have rather stringent requirements, which seems a bit silly, considering that a good chunk of those positions don't pay particularly well. I suppose in this economy, companies can afford to be a bit choosier and pay less, since the demand for jobs is so high. I'm considering doing a 2 job stint and just murder the free time for a while until something better comes my way. Hopefully I can land a job somewhere soon. This lack of real purpose behind my life is starting to get to me. My sleep schedule is entirely out of whack, I'm starting to feel listless, I still have bills to pay and debts to get rid of... Bleh.
I should look into getting an unpaid internship, and just get my foot in the door, but I need the revenue. I can't really justify working for free to myself... but then again, I'm barely employed right now. What would an unpaid internship really do to my current situation except eat into my gas bill a bit more?
Bleh. Gonna job hunt a bit more online before falling asleep.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Family Reunions, Colorado, and the Job Hunt
It's 2011, and I have yet to find myself a stable career. I have to put myself out there more, and do it more aggressively, but I'm finding myself somewhat unsure of what it is I want to do. A steady source of revenue is key, but as much as I joke about not caring about what sort of job I get, it does gnaw away at my mind. I want to find work in an industry where I can care about what I do, but what is that exactly? Immediate answers like the music or gaming industry come to mind, but how do I get in on the ground floor? It's hard enough to get basic entry levels with my background, but to venture into the entertainment industry, which is notoriously underwhelming in terms of pay and treatment, and is harder to break into without the right connections and experience... sigh. I should have gone into CS in college from the get go.
Visiting Andrew for a week in CO. It's such a beautiful place, with a crisp, clean feel that I could never quite find in MD. The people aren't as... diverse, but they all seem fairly friendly and open. I could see myself coming around here more often, just to gawk at the outdoors and revel in the feeling of... different. It's not loud here, there aren't any social obligations, it's... it's just nice here.
The 2011 Family Reunion was... messy, to say the least. Terrible health news caused a lot of stress for one branch of the clan, and saw their premature departure. Brother woes invoked a wave of migraines and other stress-related issues for me. Underage pregnancy was another hot button topic. On that subject, it feels so... surreal, seeing this girl that I remember as this little rugrat, now showing signs of a baby bump. Family as a whole is doing what it normally does when it comes to touchy issues like this, but the cousin in question seems to be taking it in stride, as well as she can. I feel for her and her situation, but I need to be in a better situation before I can think of helping her with her's.
There's also a small possibility that I could see how my niece and nephew are doing, and that... it's something that I tried not to think about, since their father wasn't able to be a part of their lives. I grew convinced that their roles in my life were over as soon as the messy divorce happened. But... just the thought of seeing them, even if only through photos... my nephew's a teenager now, with his sister chomping on his heels. It's... I felt a rush of emotions just hit me when I heard about this possibility. I don't know how to even describe it. I only really knew them through stories my brother told me, and I've only ever seen them, held them a couple times when their parents were still together. But the idea that there's blood that I haven't seen in more than a decade, blood that I was supposed to care for, as an uncle... it really digs deep.
Sigh.
SIGH.
EMO POST SIGH.
Visiting Andrew for a week in CO. It's such a beautiful place, with a crisp, clean feel that I could never quite find in MD. The people aren't as... diverse, but they all seem fairly friendly and open. I could see myself coming around here more often, just to gawk at the outdoors and revel in the feeling of... different. It's not loud here, there aren't any social obligations, it's... it's just nice here.
The 2011 Family Reunion was... messy, to say the least. Terrible health news caused a lot of stress for one branch of the clan, and saw their premature departure. Brother woes invoked a wave of migraines and other stress-related issues for me. Underage pregnancy was another hot button topic. On that subject, it feels so... surreal, seeing this girl that I remember as this little rugrat, now showing signs of a baby bump. Family as a whole is doing what it normally does when it comes to touchy issues like this, but the cousin in question seems to be taking it in stride, as well as she can. I feel for her and her situation, but I need to be in a better situation before I can think of helping her with her's.
There's also a small possibility that I could see how my niece and nephew are doing, and that... it's something that I tried not to think about, since their father wasn't able to be a part of their lives. I grew convinced that their roles in my life were over as soon as the messy divorce happened. But... just the thought of seeing them, even if only through photos... my nephew's a teenager now, with his sister chomping on his heels. It's... I felt a rush of emotions just hit me when I heard about this possibility. I don't know how to even describe it. I only really knew them through stories my brother told me, and I've only ever seen them, held them a couple times when their parents were still together. But the idea that there's blood that I haven't seen in more than a decade, blood that I was supposed to care for, as an uncle... it really digs deep.
Sigh.
SIGH.
EMO POST SIGH.
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